So my dr. appointment did not go so well. I now get to go see a perinatologist on tuesday. I am sick with worry that things will go badly. This all on top of being sick alot (morning sickness still) I feel terrible alot and am just wishing that I could do more than what I am doing. I have definelty been trying my hardest to draw nearer to my Heavenly Father for strength right now. But my great weakness is when I allow in those feelings of doubt and uncertainty.
Just when I think it can't get much worse Aaron's car drops a rod. Sooo.. when it rains it pours I guess.Have to now try to find a decent cheap car. Sometimes I feel as though each day is a battle to just get out of my bed, play with my children and will myself to do a little house work each day. That perhaps if I tell myself long enough that I am well my body will begin to believe it. My hope is dwindling on this matter right now. I feel like I am in survival of the fittest mode, and believe me when I say I am losing that battle.
I know that this is but a small moment of my life right now and I will eventually get past this, that whatever the outcome I need to find something to learn from all this. I just keep thinking that I am not sure what I am supposed to learn from this.
Anyhow, sorry for the pity party I am throwing myself, I have lots to be thankful for and am glad that I have the gospel in my life. Thanks everyone for your help, concerns and prayers on our behalf, we appreciate it alot.
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